I think i left myself back there; with you.

Sunday, May 07, 2006

went to eat with fam, g-ma and cousin! finally my couz gt a gf man.. haha..! tht gurl was frm SA choir. Haha.. but she so skinny lah. Lol.

I just realised my grandfather frm my dad's side is an orphan.. And my dad said he's frm JB. wahhh.. then he met my grandma in Sg when workin...wah. All my life i didnt noe. sibaisibai. i wonder who'r my great grandparents and if they were happy at all to leave him wherever he was and i wonder if g-pa was ever happy tht he was stil alive, wht r his tots abt his parents or if he ever found out a little even bout his relatives? i then told myself i'll nvr do such a thing.. did g-pa run away frm wherever he was frm? okay, im thinkin too much. then dad said g-ma was frm sg. her parents also sg. he rmbred seeing his g-pa.. dad said he always wore a hat. (those mao-zedong hat) wahaha..he muz be dam cute. Then he's always with a white shirt, and a ma-ta shorts. ( policeman shorts, those in olden tyms one! ) haha. cute bah. dad said he's skinny too. SURE cfm cute 1.hahaha!
for my mum's side, my g-ma came frm china! haha.. if i dun get to see them, i guess frm my generation on, i wont even know i hav relatives on e other end of e world..! haha..

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ah, My life is a rollercoaster. at some points, you get lucky to get a smooth turn to swift away frm e edge. while at other times, you fall right down from sky high.... where u wanna scream, you cnt. where u wanna say sthg frm inside of you, but nth comes out cos you get shocked and.. all other feelings come tgther. And aft e ride, everything gets messed up. You wanna vomit it out, you cnt. You wan things to get better to feel better, it just wouldnt no matter hw hard you try. You get stuck right there with tht uneasy feel till you vomit the whole chunk tht got you feelin bad thru-out...

i gues ... im stil on tht bad ride.

rest in you alone at`2:03 AM